Anxiety Again

I'm anxious again. There are lots of things going on right now but keeping up is not the problem. Actually, I'm getting things done early but I feel that I can do something more. I feel that something is missing. It's as if there is something else that needs to be done. What exactly, I don't know. I'm guessing, I'm just missing the rush, the pressure. I still have lots of free time even if I'm doing stuff and maybe that explains why I still feel that whatever I'm doing isn't enough.

Anyway, the experiment part of my thesis is gonna start soon. Thinking about it makes my head want to explode. It's not huge work, mind you, but it's going to be one hell of a BRAIN WORKOUT. But it's pretty exciting. I never thought I'd say this but seeing the "researcher" label when I log in the subpool website makes me "kilig". It's a lovely feeling. Haha! Speaking of "kilig", I just re-scheduled my grad pic session 'cause it will be in conflict with my experiment. As I register again, I can't stop smiling. Oh my! This whole process of graduating is kinda fun. I never thought I will feel this way about it. I used to say that I don't want to be out of school!

So back to the topic of being anxious, I think I have to do something about it. I should volunteer no? Maybe at HSC since I'm always in that area anyway. Hitting two birds with one stone pa 'yon! Maybe, maybe. I should look into that.

Oh I submitted my two weeks notice earlier. I will only work 4 more shifts and then it's goodbye Polo. I know wouldn't miss that place.

How Six Songs Collide

I love the Norwegian Recycling!!! I love their stuff! I've been listening to their mash-ups for a while now but I only downloaded some of the albums just recently coz I'm ignorant with Torrent. LOL Now this is all I listen to aside from Paolo Nutini.

I'm superrr addicted to this song. It's old but OHMY I don't care. I can't help but drown in his voice.



I have this on repeat while studying. How I wish I'm Teri Brogan. Lucky girl!

R.A.

Remember the job I was talking about mid-last year? Well, IT IS MINE now. FINALLY.

I am a research assistant.

I got interviewed earlier. The professor told me everything about the study then showed me the lab and the office afterwards. She then took me to the Family Social Sciences office so I can get some forms and then they gave me keys to the building and the lab itself.

It's exciting! I really wanna get some research experience. And I'm gonna work with kids so it's really good.

The study will run until the summer and maybe around the fall. So the question has been answered. Now I know what I'm gonna do after grad. I'm gonna stay here for a while at least.

All I Wanna Say Is That

REALLY COOL!

The dancing inmates from Cebu, Philippines were visited by Michael Jackson's longtime choreographer, Travis Payne. Sony filmed the routine and I think it's included in the This Is It DVD. Coooool!

The video is a mix of ironies. LOL They even made the peace sign at the end tapos the song that they danced to is They Don't Really Care About Us which is a song about being a victim of the system. But it's amazing nonetheless. It's a good thing that the Cebu inmates' dance exercise gets attention. I really believe that this is a good way to teach discipline and camaraderie.

Chillax

Today was a fun, fun super chillax day. Impromptu lakad with Marylin, Keith, and Lem after I asked them if they can help me with my experiment. Actually, we made Keith skip his Bio class. LOL

We were supposed to go to Kawaii again but we ended up at Naru kasi sobrang gutom na kami. Mega tawanan and kwentuhan over sushi (at Naru), torte, and steamed milk (at Baked Expectations). I never ate that much for a long, long time already. I had my usual Teriyaki Chicken and Ice Roll at Naru. Yummy! I will never get tired of Ice Roll. After that, Marylin said she wants something sweet. We were supposed to chill at Starbucks but we're worried that we might not find a spot for the place is usually packed so we went to Baked Exp. We shared two kinds of tortes - hazelnut and mocha. Sobrang tawanan and kalokohan uli. Our faces were hurting already from too much laughing. 

I wish all days are like this. Sobrang chill-chill lang after a quite stressful week. Sabi nga namin, we should do it more often, every payday siguro. Fun times!

Switchfoot

Last night, Tristan, Sybil, Marylin, Patrick and I watched Switchfoot's concert at the Garrick Centre. The place was packed, the crowd was great, and Switchfoot was just AWESOME! Sobrang saya!

They sang all the tracks from their new album Hello Hurricane then some of their hits from their old albums. Ang galing-galing!!! We were dancing, singing, and hollering! We enjoyed the night nang sobra-sobra!

Concerts like this is FUN. I enjoyed it really much when we were already standing and just jumping to the songs. Looking forward to watching more!

Photo from Sybil Abarientos

Fae's Day!

 Eto ang birthday na hindi dapat ma-miss kasi kapag hindi ka nakapunta, makokonsensya ka. Kasi naman, ONE YEAR ahead ang pag-invite ng celebrant kaya wala kang kawala. HAHAHA!

Ang birthday celebrant!

Wala nang Barbie doll ang cake. Flowers na lang. 20 na kasi sya. HAHAHA Masarap lagi ang handa. Andito pa rin ang favorite naming GULAMAN! Waaah!

Sobrang daming bata!!! OMG!!! Gusto ko nang tumira kila Fae. They are all super cute! Look at their little "cave". Anjan ang mga toys nila. Para lang silang nagka-camping.

And eto kami! FUN TIMES!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, FAE!!!

Photos from Arianne Solis

Kawaii II

Me and my friends went to Kawaii again. I don't think we will stop going here until we tried everything. HAHAHA Medyo madami kami. Sabi nga ni Marylin, FIELD TRIP! Hahaha! 

I got Sweet Tooth this time! It's yummy. It's not super sweet for the whipped cream and the ice cream balances the Nutella. I also got their Mango Bubble tea. It's alright. Asia City is still the winner though.

This is everyone. Well, not everyone. Keith, Alvir, and I are missing.

Fun day! Lots of laughing, laitan, and tawanan. CANTALOUPE. HAHAHAHA

Grad Blues

I am graduating in a few months and expectations are high. I'm trying to push the what-will-I-do-after-this thoughts away to the back of my mind. Maybe I'm still in denial about graduating. I'm living by the moment right now. But after Jiggs asked me earlier, if I see myself living in the Philippines or here in the Peg it suddenly dawned on me that I really have no idea where I want to stay. I mean, I am sure that I don't want to stay in the homeland nor here in Winnipeg for the rest of my life but I don't have any alternatives in mind either. If you ask me right now, I just want to go from one place to another with no concern about permanence. The thing is I have to pick a Law school and stay there for at least three years. As to where, I don't know. The idea of living in a place and getting stuck there for a long, long time actually makes me anxious.

And then I realize, I have no destination because I have no reason to go and stay somewhere. That's what I need, I guess - a reason. Right now I just have two things in mind - the internship and my projects. That's it for me and I really, really, really hope that they will materialize. Shit no. I will make them happen. But anything after that... I don't know already. If I won't be able to go to BC for that internship, I don't know what I will do. Work maybe but where, I am not sure.

Jiggs told me to just wait until I actually graduate coz that's when I need the answer. For now, I guess I'll just focus on what I need to finish then I'll figure something out. I just hope I'll find it in me soon.  

Today's Randoms

This is it. The last term of my undergrad! I'm still having problems with the whole Tier-St. John's but whatevs.

Kaya ko 'to. Itodo na!

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Eh kung kayo kaya ang mag-move on? Nauna pa ako sa inyo.

Ginagago ko na nga lang, pero sineseryoso nyo pa rin. What the hell?

Dalawang taon at mas marami pang kwentuhan

Dalawang taon at daan-daang blog entries.

Happy Anniversary, Kwentong Marathon

Trivia:

• Ang "Kwentong Marathon" ay galing sa kantang Hinahanap-hanap Kita (Adik Sa'yo) ng Rivermaya. Specifically, sa line na 'to: "Adik sa'yo, awit sa akin. Tila sawa na sa aking mga kwentong marathon." Isa kasi ang kantang 'to sa mga all-time favorite songs ko tapos parang bagay naman kasi sa blog na 'to kasi puro kwento naman talaga.
• Yun nga lang, medyo sinungaling yung blog title kasi hindi naman sya "marathon" talaga. Tumigil ako mag-post noong, October 2007 at bumalik lang noong April 2008. Sobrang busy kasi sa school at sa kung ano-ano pang mga bagay. Tapos minsan isang beses lang ako nakakapag-post sa isang buwan.
• Ang mga posts sa Crazy Moments, hindi isang lalake lang ang tinutukoy. LOL At kung iniisip nyo na may post ako jan tungkol don sa lalakeng yon under Crazy Moments, sorry to disappoint you pero WALA. Hahahaha! 
• Ang kulay ng Kwentong Marathon dati ay yellow, white, at black. Hindi na ngayon.
• Pang-limang blog ko yata ang Kwentong Marathon. Nagsimula akong mag-blog nung 13-14 years old ako. Hindi ko na maalala talaga. Una akong nasa Blogger tapos lumipat sa Blogdrive. Bumalik sa Blogger pero nagkaroon ng LiveJournal pero mas loyal pa rin sa Blogger. Hindi ko na maalala kung ano yung mga pangalan ng mga dati kong blog maliban sa Ako ay Bituin  na sinundan ng Kwentong Marathon. Deleted na kasi may malware. 
• Cloe McOrr ang pangalan ko dito which is a play on my real name.

How DFs Talk

My YM status: "is confused!!! Bahala na nga!

Alvir: Ang mga bagay na hindi maintindihan ay hinahanap sa dictionary.

Me: WALA NGA EH. I LOOKED NA. Even Wikipedia.

Me: HAHAHAHAHAHA

Alvir: Bakit ka natawa?

Me: Wala. Masama?

Alvir: Hmmm yeah

Me: Che mo. Ikaw nga naka-smile.

Alvir: Coz I have a reason to smile. :P

Me: AND I HAVE A REASON TO LAUGH. MWAHAHAHA

I told DF that I have so many printscreen-ed conversations.

Alvir: Let's see kung kanino ang huling tawa. :)

Me: Tinatanong pa ba yan? EH DI SYEMPRE SA AKIN.

Alvir: Tignan na lang natin. :) =))

Me: Oo talaga.

Alvir: Bakla ka.

Alvir: Dadating din ang time na ikaw naman ang tatawanan namin. :)

Me: Hindi nyo ako makikita.

Me: OMG. Pang-ilan ka nang nagsabi nyan.

Alvir: Don't be so sure about that. :)

Me: Mga walanghiya kayo. CHE KAYONG LAHAT.

Alvir: Kakainin mo ang mga sinasabi mo. :)

Me: SHET KA. Ganyan din sabi ni Mavic.

Alvir: =))

Alvir: Isa lang ibig sabihin nyan DF.

Me: Meant to be kayo ni Mavic. =))

Alvir: GAGO!

Me: =)) =)) =))

The Moon

Who knows what you mean to me now?
You're like the moon. Always there; always on my mind.
And you're so damn beautiful.
But maybe
You're just a big rock, floating in space.
Maybe you're not mystical, maybe you're nothing but dust.
Maybe not the magic kind.
Maybe.

And maybe I have no fucking clue where I am going with this
And I just need to just sort it out.
But the image of your eyes clouds my own vision Of where I stand and where I am heading.
And I am just lost.


(Taken from Tumblr. Not mine though I wish I wrote this.)

Avatar (2009)

Finally, we got to watch Avatar this afternoon! The theatre was sooo packed! We watched the 3PM show ha but still there are lots of people!

As for the movie itself: Oh man, 3 hours of mind blowing computer graphics. PURE AWESOMENESS! It's not just the CG that is amazing though. The issues tackled in the story are really, really current even if it is originally written 14 years ago. The audience can relate to it one way or another.

Some parts of the story is predictable (including the ending) but what makes it amazing is how it incorporates social issues in the situation between the Sky People and the Na'vis. The use of education, supplying medicine, etc. to the Na'vis to gain their trust and be able to influence them have happened and is still happening in real life. The desire for precious material and trying to drive the indigenous people away. The movie reminded me of the Iraq war. It reminded me of the tribes we've studied in my Anthropology classes. (Also, while watching it, I can't help but think of Grace (Sigourney Weaver) not as a scientist but as an anthropologist. I don't know. Her character just have that feel and the attitude of an anthropologist.) It made me think and reflect. I like movies like that. Movies that subtly ask you what you will do if you are in that situation. (Like The Dark Knight)

Pandora enthralled me. It's so beautiful. The details that Cameron put in this fictional world is just wow. The Na'vi culture was beautifully depicted. They even have their own language! I wonder where Cameron drew inspiration for it. This is why I love, love stories like this. The amount of time and effort needed to create a fictional society with all the structures, the social hierarchy, the religion, the language, etc. to make it seem a real one is not a joke. It takes a genius to be that detailed.

On a lighter note, Sam Worthington is sooo gwapo. And I don't know if it's just me and my malabo eyes plus the 3D glasses but Sigourney sometimes looks like Susan Sarandon.

Overall, it is a great movie. Visually stunning! I wish Pandora actually exists! Haha!

Watch: The Making of Avatar
Read: Avatars making love?
Listen: Leona Lewis' I See You

Walt Disney's Rapunzel

Days ago, I was wondering why Disney hasn't made Rapunzel into a Disney movie.

And then earlier, I found this at the Walt Disney Animation website: 

Some visual developments:

The Tower

The Prince climbing up Rapunzel's hair

THIS IS EXCITING! I can't wait! Check it out here!

Media Noche

I think it is called Media Noche. I'm not too sure but anyway, HAPPY 2010! Here are pictures from last night!

The Feast

My sibs made kwek-kwek/tukneneng whatever you call it. It's quail egg dipped in flour and fried then you can either dip it in vinegar or sweet sauce. And we have suman and empanada too. The empanadas we ordered from my uncle's friend's mom. They are really good. We always have them whenever there are special occasions. Pinoy na pinoy. Hahaha! Yummy!

Most of the food we had were by our lola but the baked macaroni is by my mom! Oha, oha! She can cook now! LOL So that night, we had Spaghetti and Baked Macaroni. Too much carbs. LOL

We spent the night playing Band Hero, watching Night at the Museum 2, and eating... LOTS OF EATING.

Itel, Anjo, and Mine

Hello, 2010!