Ghosts of the Recent Past

There had been events and incidents that taught me this past few weeks that, indeed, one will always be haunted by the past. No matter how much you have moved on, the universe will not only remind you but will do things to straightforwardly tell you that no matter how many steps you take forward, you already left prints behind you. And that they count and you ought not to forget.

I have moved on. Seriously, I have left the past neatly tucked in somewhere. I just don't care anymore but the world won't hear that. Things that happened before will re-surface because it will somehow be still connected with the present. Directly or indirectly - it doesn't matter.

I don't hate it. It's just one reality of life that one has to face. Every action, every choice has consequences, right? And I know this is one of it.

The only thing I hate, in my case, is that people don't seem to believe that I moved on just like that. Other than that, I have no serious complains.

It's all good!

Recordinggg

My sister was surprised by her friends today. It's her 19th birthday. I haven't bought her a gift. Ang wish nya lang naman eh capo for her birthday. Siguro bukas na lang ako bibili. I don't know where I can find one though. I don't wanna go store to store on Portage if it's gonna rain tomorrow. Leche ha. Ayoko nga.

We have been recording songs. Experimenting. So kailangan ni Bruha ng capo so she could play more songs. I wish I could link a song here kaso I don't have an online storage.

So yeah, IT HAPPENED. And another thing happened. I don't know why they have to be on the same day. Favorite talaga ako ni Mother Nature. EFFFF.

I should be worrying about my thesis but I'm not. Right now I don't care. But I'm gonna go to school tomorrow and read/research. I'm gonna give it a day para di naman ako maguilty diba. Hayyy...

I Need Your Suggestions

I've been thinking about this for quite a while. Actually, eto talaga yung dream project ko and the plan has been in my mind since I don't even remember when. I'm not sure if this is the right time for this, with me being in my (hopefully) last year in university but I'm gonna be anxious if I don't do something now. Kailangan ko lang talaga isulat 'to.

I want to gather up books for kids in the Philippines. Build a collection of books in schools that do not have libraries. And also provide the kids with colouring books and colouring materials.

When we were kids, these things were available to us and it made us learn and experience places that we haven't visited. We learned a lot by reading and it introduced us to ideas and to different possibilities. Sa experience ko, reading helped me a lot to imagine things na di ko nakikita sa immediate environment ko.

No money will be involved in this project. Donations lang lahat.

This project intends to build a collection of:

1) English materials
2) Filipino materials
3) Materials that are written in the dialect of the province
4) Colouring books and colouring materials

Target:

Provinces who do not have a formal/structured school facility. Mostly found in the northern provinces.

The problem with this project, I do not know who to contact in the Philippines that could be trusted to deliver the books to the target schools. Asking for donations is easy but the distribution is gonna be a little complicated.

So yeah, I'm asking for help. If you know someone who does the same sort of thing, or an NGO, or anyone who want to help here and in the Philippines.

And suggestions, comments, if you have any.

I just want to make this happen. THANK YOU. :)

Honey, honey

I'd heard about you before.
I wanted to know some more.
And now I'm about to see
what you mean to me...

OMG! Is it true???

Is it true??? My old team is back???

Heard Pingris and Artadi are traded back to Purefoods Giants.

SHEEETTT. I'm sooo happy-happy-happy! I was just wishing it the other day ha!!!

YEY, YEY, YEY!

Chaka!

What's up with translating English songs into Tagalog? REALLY? Ang chaka-chaka. My sister made me listen to some of these translated songs and, mygahd, nakaka-highblood sila ha. I heard tagalog versions of Irreplaceable and Tell Me Where It Hurts. Ang panget! "Kaliwa, kaliwa..." REALLY???

Speaking of chaka, Carlo Caparas is on a battle. It's him against the world. Well, actually, it's him and his wife versus the entire universe. Hahahaha! I really don't understand WHY he was given the National Artist award.

National Artist and Carlo Caparas do not mix well coz it's sooo wrong.

To be fair, let's give him credit with Panday and his other endeavors in the komiks industry but the award given is for FILM. Taena. Ang mga precious massacre films ba nya ang dahilan??? WHO IN THE WORLD WILL CALL THOSE MOVIES CLASSIC?

I don't get it.

Pero ano pa nga ba ang aasahan sa isang bansang tumatangkilik kay Marian Rivera at Dingdong Dantes?

This is Like Straight Out of a Baby Commercial

Baby James kisses mommy Kris Aquino during Mass for Lola Cory Aquino.

Tama na ang Iyakan

The other day me and my sister saw this TV plug for Maalala Mo Kaya. It features the story of war veterans. I told my sister, I won't watch that particular episode ever. NO WAY. If I do, I would have to be alone coz I would really BAWL over that. Whatever the story is if it's about soldiers I CRY. Actually, there's another one - TEACHERS. You could just imagine me while watching the movie Mila, which starred Maricel Soriano as a teacher. (Remember, "Be Happy?")

I don't know why. Maybe I have a soldier husband in my past life and I was a teacher or the other way around. LOL. There's really something with them. Whenever I talk about the Philippine government not giving what is rightfully due to them, I can't help but be emotional. It's actually one reason why I hate the government. Wala pa yatang Filipino president na nagbigay ng sobrang importansya sa mga sundalo at guro. Fine, maybe some do care but it's not enough. In the case of soldiers, these people are risking their lives tapos yung sweldo sobrang liit and the benefits, I doubt that these are given on time. The teachers too. They are being given so little. I hate it. Argh.

So yeah. I won't watch this MMK episode because I know I will just cry a lot. I don't want to cry anymore kasi Pres. Cory Aquino's funeral is too much already. Haha. Quota na.

Precious Bauble

I read in Chuvaness that Kate Moss wears a Filipino-designed necklace in September's Vogue. I searched for it and found this. Bea Valdes' designs are really woah. The details the colors.... her designs are just worldclass. Her jewelry is not for everyday though and it is the type that should be worn alone, that is, without any other jewelry to go with it (at least for me. Usually what I do is if I wear something elaborate, I minimize other pieces.)

Above is the Fleurs Du Mal necklace. My favorite in the set she has on the website.

(Dream) Home & (Dream) Art

One of dreams is that to have a house of my own. One that I will help design and build with my own money. I could already see it in my mind - my dream house. It's a dream, though, that is always changing. My dream house changes its appearance everytime I learn something new about architecture and interior design. I find new inspirations everyday. My dream is active and forever changing.

One thing that has been recently added to my dream sketch is providing space for the works of Filipino artists in my dream home. I've always expressed my regret of not knowing much about Filipino art and, yes, I've been making up for that. I have been reading more about the Pinoy art scene since now I have more time. Here are two artists that will definitely be wanted in my living room provided that I have the budget someday. Haha!

Ramon Orlina

Blue Sapphire
200638 x 25.5 x 16.5 cm
Carved Bronze Asahi Glass &
Cobalt Blue Lead Swarovski Crystal

I like this 'cause Sapphire is my birthstone.

I was introduced to Ramon Orlina through watching Urban Zone regularly. I saw his work in various houses and then recently the show featured his own home. It's amazing.

Poetry in Motion

2006

36 x 38 x 34 cm

Carved Asahi Glass

I heard his works are EXPENSIVE. Haha! But it's worth it, right?Check out more about Ramon Orlina at

http://orlina.com/

Michael Cacnio

Pictures of his work can be viewed here.
Check out his website: http://www.michaelcacnio.com/

He's also an Isko!

Benji Reyes

But I think the most influencing thing that happened to me is an unexpected visit to Mr. Benji Reyes' house more than 4 years ago. It was an honor to see such a wonderful home. I saw beauty and love for art.

It changed my definition of a dream house. It made me appreciate what's distinctly Pinoy while still embracing modern designs.

Check out his profile here.

OOOHHH This Makes Me Smile

THIS IS THE CUTEST!!!
Robots actually dancing NOBODY.
HAHAHA! Oh my!

No Room for Error

How come that in my life there's no room for error?

I just checked all the requirements and the deadlines for Law. Even if I really don't want to, I have to wait a year. I will have to have a year of preparation. It is actually just right for everything. I cannot have delays or anything. No months-long vacations, no willy-nilly actions/decisions.

Here I am again pressuring myself.

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PS. I ♥ Bulk Barn

Cheesecakes -1 and Panlalait

Arianne, Lem and I had late lunch today. Fun, fun. Good ol' times. Had a laugh about each other's lovelives and did a lot of panlalait. What is a good get-together without evilness anyway? HAHA.

Arianne is happy with her LOVE. Lem is in denial (and she'll kill me for this). And I have yet to find my match. My true match, that is. Habang tumatagal, lalong lumalabo at kumokonti ang pwede kong maging match. Haha. But no complains here. I'm enjoying every bit of single blessedness.

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I saw a gwapo guy kanina...

Height... CHECK!
Good taste when it comes to clothes... CHECK!
Lean body... DOUBLE CHECK! (Love his arms, man!)

And when I found nothing to lait about his physical appearance, the immediate thought is, "MAYBE HE'S GAY."

HAHAHAHA! Shet. Maybe he is gay but maybe he's not pero yan talaga yung naisip ko nung wala na kong malait sa kanya. HAHAHAHA! Ay ewan ko ba.

For Corazon Aquino

In this time of greediness and power hungriness,

I never thought anyone could be great but still be wonderful.

The homeland is weeping for a great loss.

The homeland is celebrating a life well-lived.

Sleep and More Sleep

I was supposed to work yesterday but I wasn't feeling well at all. When I woke up, I felt pain in my abdominal area and then I felt dizzy. I'm used to spells like this so I practically know what to do, which is to sit down and close my eyes. I've been having this for as long as I can remember so it's not really a big deal. I thought I can still go to work. But I as I was walking to the car, to borrow the line from a song, [FELT] THE EARTH MOVE UNDER MY FEET. I was so damn woozy. My ears were ringing and all I feel is this unsettling sensation on my chest. So yeah, I called and told them I can't go. The thing is I'm OK if I don't move which is impossible with my work. I can't risk collapsing while working because that will be downright embarassing. No way. So my whole day was spent in my room... SLEEPING. I had a terrible headache afterwards which radiated to the back of my head, some parts of my face,... you get the idea. I had to take a pill. Luckily, it didn't take long for it to kick in. After that I was able to read my book (The Gargoyle. I was supposed to read The Time Traveller's Wife but it's expensive. Will have to raid a used bookstore for that soon) and watch some online TV streaming. (Cory Aquino's public viewing, tributes, etc.)

So for the past few days, I've been back to the old ways. I've been reading, watching good movies (finally watched Slumdog Millionaire!), writing on my planner, etc. I haven't been spending a lot of time online, which is good. The thing though is I also sleep a lot. And by a lot I mean, more than half-a-day. BAAAD. I can't get enough sleep, ohmygahd. It's like I'm reclaiming all the hours I have spent on other things other than sleeping for the past 22 months.

Ahh... I guess I have to sleep now. Again. Haha!

EDIT: My prof did reply to me and said it is about the participation mark and explained to me how to compute the marks as if I don't know how to do it. I mean, really, just by looking at the numbers I CAN ACTUALLY FIGURE IT OUT. For crying out loud, I'm not dumb. Well I guess he knows that and he took it against me that I get high grades but is seemingly too proud to participate in the discussions. Well he's right. HAHAHA. No, I'm just kidding. Well, sort of. HAHAHA! I never like discussions 'cause some of the comments/contributions are WTF-worthy. A lot of people speak for the sake of speaking without actually thinking the degree of dumbness in their arguments/questions. WHATEVER. I didn't reply to his email coz really, what can I do about it? It's subjective and he gave me almost nothing. Can't really argue with it 'cause it's his call.