First day

First day went well. It helps that I'm a weirdo who gets delighted at the sight of grapefruit spoons, melon ballers, cheese slicers, and all those kitchen gadgets that you can always do without. Haha! Everyone's nice and work is not boring. All good!

See me in London, I'll be in New York

The Telectroscope

Poetry Hunting

somewhere i have never travelled,gladly beyond
by E. E. Cummings

somewhere i have never travelled,gladly beyond
any experience,your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near

your slightest look will easily unclose me
though i have closed myself as fingers,
you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens
(touching skilfully,mysteriously)her first rose

or if your wish be to close me, i and
my life will shut very beautifully ,suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines
the snow carefully everywhere descending;
nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals
the power of your intense fragility:whose texture
compels me with the color of its countries,
rendering death and forever with each breathing

(i do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens;only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody,not even the rain,has such small hands

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Reading poems right now. Haha. Wala lang. Nasa mood lang for some literature.

Can't think of a title

Morning:

I cleaned my half of Bikini Bottom. Books were piled up beside my bed and they needed some organization.

Afternoon:

Watched the favorite romcom. Yes, I know. Walang kasawa-sawa. Hindi ko na nga mabilang kung ilang beses ko yun pinanood pero natatawa pa rin ako at nakikilig. Hahaha! If you know me, you should know which movie I'm talking about.

Evening:

Barbecue!

And since wala ang mga panget, I can play all the songs I want here sa basement without someone complaining that they don't know the songs that I know. The nerve ni Bruha magcomplain. E yung mga kanta na pinapatugtog nya e hindi nga nya matranslate sa amin ni Panget. Wahahaha!

Latest news

Anak-Pawis' Crispin Beltran died yesterday.

Still sick

Watched Penelope this morning. The movie is sooo cute! I love the colors! I really like movies that have very pretty production design. And, and James McAvoy. Wow. Just wow. I already love him. Hahaha! I will definitely watch Wanted next month.

Lem texted me earlier. She's going to BDI with some of our friends and asked if I wanted to come. It sucks because I can't go. I still feel dizzy whenever I stand or walk or do anything that will require me to move a lot. Argh...

So for now, I'm going to watch more movies. And hopefully I can get some sunshine before the day ends.

Not in my element

I'm really, really sick. Two days now. I can't even stand long enough without getting dizzy. So yeah, I'm just here in my room, watching movies, reading stuff, and all that. Just finished watching Made of Honor. Hindi ako kinilig. I don't know. Maybe I'm just not in the mood for anything cute and rosy and fun today.

A Little Unwell

. . .

Toink!

Isang convo mula sa aking kaibigan:

Gusto ata makita sa webcam ang kagandahan...

Guy: salamat nalang
Guy: daya mo talaga
Guy: baka bakla ka ano
Gay Friend: well maganda akong bakla

Taray!

Anxious

I hate waiting.

Is this love?

"You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me anymore. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine."

-- Yvaine, Stardust

Psychologist

My sister and I had a conversation the other night after watching a news clip about this woman who has an unbelievable memory. She can remember each day of her life from the big events to the most mundane ones like what she ate for breakfast in May 2, 1988. I found myself talking about Psychology with much passion. Even I was surprised. I mean, I like it but I never thought I would be so absorbed into it that I would be able to talk and talk and discuss it with somebody else, especially like my sister who's not that into the subject. But she too was amazed by the woman's ability so I told her about what I know, which is not a lot by the way, but the conversation went on and on and then we talked about other mental disorders and stuff and I...enjoyed it. I found myself happy that I know the things that I know and that I actually look forward to learning more. If you ask me right now how did this happen, I will tell you that a part of my brain, the psychologist part, says that I chose this course that's why I am subconsciously "forced" to like it. The other half, the "just me" part, says that maybe this is really the one for me.

But honestly, when I think about this whole psychology stuff, I get scared. Sometimes I think I'm not good enough to be able to do something really great in this field. I mean, I am okay now but what comes after this is what I'm worried about. I visited websites of some of the best schools offering graduate studies in Psychology and they are kind of intimidating. It feels like you can't get in unless you're super smart and constantly getting A+'s. Argh. Torture. So I don't know, at least, not yet. I have a year to figure out what I really want to do in this field. Hopefully by the time I have to sign up for a thesis advisor, I already have a decision.

I just finished watching this clip about a little boy who can't sleep because of a rare condition called chiari malformation in which his brain stem, the part which controls sleep and various other body functions, is squeezed by his spinal column. Interesting? Oh yeah!

Do you hear me? I'm talking to you.

You're soooo cute. Ha-ha-ha!

Right here, right now

• Sybil is now in the Philippines! Saw her cousins through webcam. Haha! Sobrang kukulit nila.
• Coldplay is coming to Winnipeg!!! SOOOBRRANGGG naexcite ako nung nabasa ko. I told Arianne and Sybil about it and GAME NA GAME na kami. Wahaha! Sabi ko kay Arianne, kailangang eye to eye na kami ni Chris Martin pag kinanta nya yung Fix You (na sana tugtugin nga nila!) Wahaha! Plano naming gastusan talaga ang concert na ito. EXCITED!!!
• Watched 27 Dresses this afternoon. I know. I'm SUPER LATE.
• Jason Mraz' song Lucky is REALLY, REALLY PRETTY. Grabe. I have it on repeat sa imeem. It's actually playing right now while I'm typing this. It's a duet with Colbie Callait! Included sya sa bagong album which will be released next week, I think. Waaah. I want a copy.

Popcorn

Matagal ko nang balak magbabad sa movie house pero hindi matuloy-tuloy. Nawalan na nga ako ng gana sa Forbidden Kingdom. Wahahaha! Pero there are three movies that I wanna see!

1) Made of Honor - One reason: Patrick Dempsey. Haha!
2) Iron Man - Maganda daw. Maganda ang reviews.
3) Prince Caspian - Naku. Gusto ko tong mapanood mismo sa May 16.

Sa June pa ata ang Wanted (Angelina!). Tapos end of May pa ata ang Indiana Jones at Sex and the City. At ipapalabas pala ang My Blueberry Nights dito. Sana mapanood ko din.

Ang dami nila. Hahaha! Bigla ko tuloy naisip ang Philippine movie industry. Hahaha! Bat parang wala atang magandang palabas ngayon?

Because I'm not doing anything right now...

Yesterday...

I was sick so I read fairytales. Hehe. I read not the Disney, kiddie versions but the real, gory ones. Little Mermaid's story is the saddest. Martyr kung martyr. Her situation: She gave up everything for the guy, but he only sees her as his best friend, his little sister, his companion. Lagi lang second si Little Mermaid sa kanya kasi nga gusto nya yung girl na inakala nyang nag-save sa kanya dati. Pero ang totoo nun, si LM naman talaga yung nag-save sa kanya. Hindi naman masabi ni LM kasi nga hindi naman nya mapapaliwanag kung paano. In the end, namatay sya tapos yung prince kinasal dun sa girl na mahal nya. Sad.

Ngayon ko lang talaga nabasa 'tong mga to. Puro verbal kwento lang dati e. Nakaka-shock pala pag sa papel. Haha!

Basta ang sad talaga nung kay Little Mermaid.

Today...

Even if I'm still not feeling well, I went to the univ to pay for my tuition fee and return (seven!!!heavy!!!) books to the library. Then, I went to look for a job. Hahahaha!

I walked, walked, walked and enjoyed the sun. Sobra nga lang mahangin pero ayos na rin. :)