I've got my friends. I'm more than OK

I love them. I love, love, love THE CORRS. Oh my. This for our Emo Thursday. Ang nag-iisang araw na pwedeng magdrama ang mga tao. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! Some of us can be really ma-drama so we needed some kind of regulation. And emo-ing is more fun now. If that even makes sense. HAHAHAHA

Nothing is impossible, yo!

There is a way.
There is ALWAYS a way.

WHY NOW???

When I compare myself to my Psyc classmates, I feel that I'm lagging behind. When we talk they've already finished this and that; They've volunteered in this lab and that; They are interested in this research field and hopes to do this someday.

And I...

I just don't see myself as a psychologist. I enjoy it, don't get me wrong. But going the extra mile, committing myself to it is... no. I can't do it. I can't tie myself to the field. I like it but I don't love it. Research is not something I want to do for the rest of my life. It's not me.

Now my degree requires all of me and I can't. I can't do just that. I can't be ALL ABOUT PSYCHOLOGY.

It's so foreign from the things I love. Far from culture, far from stylistic writing, far from art, far from fashion, far from politics,...

It's funny that I realized it just now in my fourth year. Maybe because it's only now that I get to see how it is really like in the academe.

Earlier we have a guest speaker in class. He's an MLA and went to talk about social influence and politics. And I was sooo there, I asked questions, I have lots of questions and I was REALLY interested. Too bad there wasn't enough time so I got to ask him only one. It feels so different. Present a psychological experiment to me and I... won't ask any question. It interests me but it doesn't interest me enough.

I know. I should've taken Political Studies.


Shit. Did I just type that?

Lady Gaga x Hello Kitty

It's the 35th birthday of our dearest cat and the Lady is celebrating with her! I'm excited about this 'cause two of my loves are together.

I just have to post something

I don't want to think about my exam last Thursday but somehow it makes it way into consciousness. I'm scared of it! I'm sooo scared of that course! Out of all my classes this term, that one is the biggest source of PRESSURE and FEAR. Shit. Really...shit.

My desk at the library. 2nd date with Julian and Bernard.

I've been studying nonstop. There is no day where I did nothing related to school. Everyday is school-day. Even my weekend will be spent studying. I HAVE TO. It's my Anthro exam on Monday and I haven't read a thing.

I've also been writing the Methods outline. I'm still not done with it. There are some details that I'm not sure about... ARGH. I have to sent it though before Monday to my advisor.

THE POSITIVE SIDE... I'm not cramming as much. I still go out once in a while. I still talk to some friends. I'm still active in other activities.

Everything's cool so far. :)

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Got this from kaththecrapout.tumblr.com
Not sure though if this is hers talaga. Lotsa cute stuff over there.
Check it out!

Date with Julian and Bernard

I'm still at the library... reading/studying. I've been here since 1PM and it's already 6.36PM. Wow. My brain is fried.

By the way, I missed my class earlier. THE FIRST EVER CLASS THAT I MISSED THIS TERM!!! I feel bad about it. I know... weird, eh? I'm so used to skipping and now I feel bad for missing a class. I didn't even skip! I missed it because of some unforeseen circumstance. Bagong buhay? Hahaha!

Eff! I can't type properly. I cut my finger yesterday at work. I thought it was OK already so I took the Band-Aid off but the hell, I'm still BLEEDING LOVE. LOL. I don't know why it takes forever for it to heal by itself. It's not a bad, bad cut.

So anyway, back to studying. My dates are waiting.

Thesis Writing Ep. 1

Nababaliw na sa dami ng research articles.
Nababaliw na sa jargon.
Nababaliw na.

Nababaliw na......... SA'YO.


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Holy crap. This is how stressed I am right now. Wait. Scratch that. I'm not stressed. My brain just refuse to focus on my thesis introduction outline. I'm sooo elsewhere. You know when you have lots to do and you feel helpless, you ended up not wanting to do anything, which is bad, I know. But I have long accepted the fact that my being human includes being tired and irresponsible. I've already mastered that sentence and I will hold on to that. LOL

Anyway, I have to go back and write this outline before I get really screwed up. I also have TWO big exams coming up so I have to straighten up and be responsible.

Byers for now.

I will find a way to you, if it kills me

Hello, tell me you know, yeah, that you figured me out. Something gave it away.

Balance after 3 years

I got a so-so grade in my English provincials. Happened about 3 years ago. The moment I saw what the topic will be, I already know... it ain't gonna be fun.

BALANCE.

When I read it, I thought, what the f*ck am I gonna right about balance? First of all, balance of what? The physical aspect? The science behind it? Or an application to an abstract like, say, priorities?

So yeah, I bombed it.

Well, not really. But it was enough to pull my English grade down some points.

I have always struggled with balance. I multi-task but the quality of work suffers. Juggling stuff is not one of my strengths. Last year, I just gave up and got contented with mediocre results. Exhaustion took over. And I thought I will never learn.

This term, I have been trying to balance it all out. I am 22 years old, I have more things stressful ahead of me and I can't just be burnt out by a year of statistics and tons of writing. I knew I had to make a move and do something.

So far, I think, I'm doing a good job. I get things done early,I get to see my friends and go out (more groups of friends, by the way), I work, I volunteer (UM-Sigaw plus UNICEF), I attend seminars, (Went to the Intro to Law! Yay!), I'm socially active and aware, I've met a lot of new people... Lots of branching out and opening up to the world. I'm loving it. I think, finally, I'm learning...some.

There's one more thing though, that I have to learn to do with all these. Without it, I know, I won't fully learn about this thing called BALANCE. I have to have it with all these to understand it wholly and learn what the word means. But I guess, I have to take it one step at a time. For now, I just have to be consistent.

AJA! :)

I can see the sun

I have always been open about the one thing I'm so passionate about. The thing that I think I will be doing for the rest of my life, that will be bring me happiness and self-actualization. (Hello, Maslow!)

I've always wanted to teach kids how to read, to teach and show them the joys of reading. I want them to discover the magic of books, the charm of words, and the endless possibilities of reading. I wanted to build libraries for kids. Give them storybooks, read to them, and teach them.

And finally guys, I think, it's gonna happen. Sooner than I expected.
Look at these cute kids?

I really hope this pushes through.

Images from http://nbsfoundation.multiply.com

So proud of Winnipeg!!!

U of M students ROCK!!! We were able to raise more than a thousand dollars and we're able to collect boxes of clothes for the Ondoy/Ketsana flood victims.

Heard Hot 103 and Filipino Journal were able to raise around $10,000 in a span of FOUR HOURS!

SO PROUD OF WINNIPEG!!!

Thank you everyone!!!!